Our second beta last Wednesday more than doubled, so that up was a great relief, but......... I'm convinced we lost this pregnancy...
No I have no proof
No I haven't had any spotting
No there is no real explanation but just pure fear.....
I just feel it. My boobs aren't as sore as I remember them being BUT I have horrible indigestion that I didn't have the last pregnancy that was about this long. I am having some strong lower abdominal pain/cramping only at night BUT then I have gas and it is relieved for a bit, so maybe I'm just being paranoid. I guess I'd rather prepare for the worst than have my heart ripped out of my body yet again.
I still haven't looked up our estimated due date (edd), I literally cannot bring myself to do that because then it will be real. I also am trying to think one day at a time, but that is just way more difficult than I thought.
I go back Thursday for my next ultra/blood and I am so uneasy.
Please Lord let this one stick and give me the streghth and courage to get to Thursday.
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