New Year......New Hope!?!?

This year we have learned and in the same beat been through a lot.  We learned that we can get pregnant via medicated iui's however we loss pregnancies very easily.

I learned to love Mr. E so much more.  He is truly my rock......... that is only if we agree on what I want or think is the right way to go :)

We learned that I have stage IV endometriosis, which is hopefully the reason we are having trouble keeping the pregnancies.

We learned that I have hashimoto's which is now treated with daily medication.

We (I) have tried so many different things to help us reach our goal of a healthy pregnancy.  I've done herbs, acupuncture, different doctors, naturopaths, food sensitivity testing, everything under the sun and I'll keep trying until something works.  I've opened my eyes to practices I previously would have disregarded as a waste of time, and I've enjoyed learning new things.

This year has brought us a lot of hope, but also a lot of sorrow.  We know we can get pregnant, however We have lost one baby at 7w4d, one at 5w4d, and one possibly at 5wd3.  All in five months.

I learned that I can inject myself with the scary needles.

I've learned to be okay with numerous people looking and placing things into my you know what.

I no longer fear blood draws........ well actually that is a lie.  I am only at ease with them if Gia, the blood draw goddess, is waiting for me with the butterfly needle, otherwise I am fearful!!!


I have learned that I can wait if I really try.  It's kind of similar to looking back and thinking, well those three months flew by, but each day was very long and felt like it was so slowwwwwww.  But always in retrospect it was much easier than actually living each second.

I've also learned that above most I want one healthy child.  Before I had dreamed of having 2-4 children, but now I would be happy with one.

This coming year brings a lot of unknowns and I know it will not be easy. I'm ready to hop back on the infertility roller coaster and get the show on the road.  I am going to try to relinquish some of the control and see what happens.